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Day 13 – Being Drunk

27 Apr
Day 13 – Being Drunk

I haven’t drank any alcohol in about 9 years now, because I am against the effects it has on the human body and mind. Alcohol has many fucked up consequences in this world, more than it has good consequences. Growing up, I had my fair share of experiences with drunken adults. So I became disgusted by this behavior. The things I saw, no child should have to see. Not only was it the things I saw, but sometimes it was very dangerous, for example when I had to be in the car with a drunken person who swung across the road left to right.

I have been drunk twice in my life, why? To try and “have fun”. I noticed however, that it just made me feel sick, and giggly. I started to spin around in my head and it was harder to speak and walk. I really didn’t like that. I noticed however, that I still tended to be shy, which I didn’t expect I would be because alcohol is supposed to make you “loose”.

So this will be the self forgiveness and correction for drunk people in general, not just my own experience as you will read. You will notice that I mention “drugs” instead of “alcohol” sometimes, because alcohol is a drug and not such a harmless drug…

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take drugs because I think I require this to have fun
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link “having fun” to using drugs that alters chemicals in my brains which gives me an experience of being more confident and/or crazy, daring etc… thinking that this is a good thing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to distract myself by consuming alcohol, using the excuses that alcohol will relax me, loosen my tongue, and I only have one drink – full aware that one drink leads to two, two drinks begin intoxication and separation from actual living – I realize that alcohol subdues my common sense and is a form of entertainment and distraction designed to keep humans preoccupied while the fucked-up-ness of the state of the world continues. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to distract myself by participating in the consummation of alcohol.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use alcohol in excess in the home knowing my personality changed when I drank and I treated my children cruelly and humiliated them in front of my friends, relatives and each other.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use alcohol in the home presenting to my children it is ‘normal’ ‘acceptable’ to drink alcohol even though I knew alcoholism ran rampant within our family ‘tree’.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not talk to my children about the dangers of alcohol consumption.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hurt my children through my alcoholism.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give myself excuses about my behavior when I drink alcohol.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not take responsibility for my actions while drinking alcohol, but instead allowing myself to blame alcohol.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to drink alcohol from the starting point of deception and manipulation, drinking it because then I have an excuse to act irresponsible, do something I otherwise wouldn’t do, or be flirtatious, and afterwards use alcohol as the excuse for my behavior, knowing very well that I have used alcohol for this purpose.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame alcohol for my actions and not taking self responsibility.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be self honest while drinking alcohol.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I cannot direct myself within self honesty while I drink alcohol.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be changed by alcohol.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to support the abuse of drugs and alcohol by requiring something seperate from me to make my existance bareable
i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to drink alcohol so that people around me would not feel bad about drinkin it themselves
I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to use alcohol to attempt and try and suppress this anger within me.
I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to attempt and try and suppress this anger within me with substances such as drugs and medication – instead of me standing up within me as me and directing this anger through self forgiveness to release – to no longer accept and allow this anger within me to consume and overpower me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to put my children in danger because I get drunk
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to bring others in danger by driving drunk
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be a danger to others when I drink alcohol because it makes me agressive
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be a danger towards others when I am drunk because it makes me want to assault woman
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be an idiot when being drunk, acting stupid as if I have no braincell left, doing behavior that is dangerous for myself, others or the environment and nature.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to try and lure others into drinking along with me
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to boost my ego through alcohol consumption, which makes me act as if I am superior.

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for associating drinking alcohol with meeting and having sex with girls/ladies. i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wanting/desiring to hookup with drunk girls/ladies that show interest in me.
i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for using drugs and alcohol as away to stimulate my mind as entertainment to take me away from facing myself and applying myself in self honesty to do what is best for myself and all.

forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to drink alcohol as an escape from myself and my responsibility for myself, because I have not allowed myself to realize it is impossible to escape from myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to drink alcohol because my friends were doing it and I was aware that I was living DISHONESTY and continued to drink
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the judgments of my friends when I don’t drink along with them
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to drink alcohol when I am with my friends because since they are doing it I feel like I should do it so we all “loosen up” and can have a “good time” when those ideas only exist in the mind
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to consumea lcohol to fit in, instead of realizing that I should stand within self honesty, to do whats best for all, not just as a follower of a group, but use my own common sense to make decisions and not depend them on what others do – because when I do that, I shift and shape myself to have others like me, where I will do things to make myself be liked even when the behavior is not good.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to drink alcohol out of fear
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to see my fears to big to overcome, so I turn to alcohol

When and as I notice the urge to get drunk because those around me are doing it, I stop and direct myself to not be a follower, but to stand strong within myself and realize that alcohol is not good for me, and that if I require alcohol to be a certain way, that it is not real. And that alcohol creates a lot of friction, sickness, abuse and death within this world that I refuse to support. I realize that when people consume alcohol, their programmed mind gets boosted, where they will magnify the personality they have accepted within them: some will become more violent, some more flirtatious, some will fall asleep or act crazy, some will constantly feel insulted and argue constantly, and some will show their gigantic ego etc… I do not accept and allow a world where human beings do not take self-responsibility for who they are and what they experience within them – but rather hide in drugs.

When and as I notice the peer pressure feeling within me, I stop and realize that if a group rejects me for not consuming drugs together with them, then it is no “loss”. If that is required from me, and otherwise they discard me, then they can do so. It means they so called “friendship” is not real, and simply based on mutual abuse, desiring another person to consume drugs and “loose their mind”.

When and as I notice that I have drank too much, I stop drinking and realize what I am doing and take self responsibility for my behavior. I do not accept and allow my feelings and thoughts to control me, and I will not allow alcohol to “change” me and direct me. And I make sure that I do not let it happen again.

I realize alcohol is a danger in this world, and that we have proven that we cannot use it in a “responsible” way, that does not exist.

-Alcohol consumption by college students is linked to at least 1,400 student deaths and 500,000 unintentional injuries each year

-More than three-quarters of female victims of nonfatal domestic violence reported that their assailant had been drinking or using drugs

-Alcohol does not relieve depression- it makes it worse. Alcohol is a depressant

-One third of suicides are associated with alcohol misuse

-10% of alcohol health care costs are for care of fetal alcohol syndrome

-More than 18 million people who use alcohol need substance abuse treatment

-Health care costs attributed to alcohol abuse in 1995 were nearly twice those of drug abuse-related costs ($23 billion vs. $12 billion).

-alcohol misuse costs Australian community 15.3 billion dollars each year when factors such as crime and violence, treatment costs, loss of productivity and premature death were taken into account

-over 3 000 Australians die each year as a result of harmful drinking -Spending for alcohol ads on T.V. by the alcohol industry grew by 22%, to more than $990 million in 2002.

-Alcohol is often not thought of as a drug, yet it is a hard drug. -One third of homicides are associated with alcohol misuse

-One half of car accidents are associated with alcohol misuse.

-Alcohol and drug abuse are factors in the placement of more than three-quarters of children entering foster care

– Some 40% of violent crime, 78% of assaults and 88% of criminal damage cases are committed whilst the offender is under the influence of alcohol

-Over 1,000 young people under the age of 15 are admitted to hospital each year with alcohol poisoning

-of those involved in acquaintance rape, 75% of men and 55% of women had been drinking or taking drugs prior to the incident.

-Alcohol causes one to be mind-possessed, oblivious to the reality we live in, and having no self-responsibility what so ever.

And the Health risks:

  -Extended alcohol abuse can cause blood conditions including several forms of anemia and blood clotting abnormalities. These conditions could result in susceptibility to bleeding and bruising. Prolonged alcohol use can also impair white blood cell function and thus makes the abuser more likely to become infected. -Half the cancers in the esophagus, larynx and mouth are linked to alcohol. Additionally, intense vomiting from excessive drinking can tear the esophogus. -Excessive and prolonged alcohol consumption can cause contribute to conditions such as high blood pressure, heart disease and heart failure. -Osteoporosis and and some forms of arthritis can be advanced by alcohol abuse. Further, alcohol can lead to muscle atrophy, which can cause sharp muscle pain and weakness. -Prolonged heavy drinking can cause kidney failure. -Alcohol can reduce the amount of digestive enzymes secreted by the pancreas, thereby inflaming and leaking digestive enzymes, which subsequently attack the pancreas itself. -Because of alcohol’s affects on the brain and alcohol’s effects on the kidneys, hormonal production is affected.In men, this could mean that the production of sperm and testosterone are affected, and that can lead to impotence and/or infertility.In women, estrogen metabolism in the liver can be decreased, which boost estrogen levels in the body. These changes can contribute to menstrual irregularities and potentially infertility. -Alcohol can damage the cells lining the stomach and intestines, which can block the absorption and breakdown of nutrients in those organs.Also make you age faster.

If alcohol has more negative side effects and higher costs than any other drug, When it gives false feelings of happyness and confidence – but leaves many drained and depressed afterwards, When it is involved with more violence, rape, accidents, child neglect and death…. Does the argument of: “I like to get drunk” still stand? Some use the excuse that “a glass a day is healthy”. But so is healthy eating and not eating sugar and junkfood. But you know as well as I do that those things are an excuse for many drinkers + many people cannot hold to the standard of “1 glass a day”. and if they really care about their health they would do everything to be a healthy as possible. And many of them simply dont.I know some people who say that it is “healthy” to drink a glass of wine a day. But then on the other hand, they get drunk every week, eat junkfood, are overweight, have had numerous of diseases and even blood cloths etc… It doesnt make any sense, the words dont match their reality and what they do.

Humanity at this stage cannot be trusted with alcohol, we have proven this.Some may be able to use it in moderation, but the masses abuse it extensivly.I would say ban until we are responsible. We cant allow ana busive substance that is misused by the majority who prove they cannot take responsibility, hoping that some day they will realise and not be dumbed down and that all corporations and elite etc…will give proper education, not hide things, and create a world of value. We will have to do that, together – so a world of responsible beings can emerge where things dont even have to be forbidden. And why is weed banned in a lot of countries, but alcohol allowed? It is insane, given the above facts. Alcohol does do a good job in keeping the population dumb though… So that may be one of the reasons. Oh, and money ofcourse. And we even support this because we forgot to use our common sense. We even try to pursuade our peers into consuming drugs (which alcohol is). And may even reject them when they decline. We have become our own slave masters. Easy, then no one else has to do the dirty work.

Dare to stand up for yourself! And for life!

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Posted by on April 27, 2012 in Human Behavior

 

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