I am a girl, a female, a human being, living on planet earth. For a great part of my mid teenage years I had felt depressed about this world and the way I was. I saw my own superficialness, my self-pity and my acceptance of this world of abuse which I did not take responsibility for because I saw myself as unable to. Until an afternoon in 2007 … the day that stopped my depressions once and for all, and gave me the tools to support myself, and create a world best for all starting with myself. I found the Desteni website, which spoke about “self forgiveness” and “self honesty”, things I have never heard about previously. What was important for me, was to write, and discover my own patterns, fears, the way I was programmed and the behavior that is in fact not best for all. To be self honest, and LIVE the correction. Because without living it, it is useless to me.
So in the beginning I sometimes wrote self forgiveness because I felt I had to, like an obligation. But that of course never worked. It is not a magic spell, it are statements you have to use to assist yourself, to make things clear, to lay out patterns, see them and release them (a.k.a. forgive them). Because forgiveness means you are not holding on to them, and giving yourself a chance, another chance to let them go and decide for yourself who you are and will be. Because as long as we blindly follow the things that sprout up within us, based on thoughts, feelings and emotions depending on our cultur, our upbringing etc… we are not directing ourselves, and are able to be directed. You may say: big deal! But yes, it is a big deal. Just look at the outflows of this within our world. Jealousy within a household may not seem like that much of a big deal, but it is, on a larger scale it can create wars. Because people within a household are not different than politicians or leaders. They are people, who work together (or fight and manipulate together) to create a certain outcome they wish to achieve. And then we have a choice: doing what is best for all, or doing what is only best for a minority. There lies the problems we face each day, living in and supporting a system which main goal is profit, for a minority, at the cost of the majority.
So to change this all, I realized that I would have to stand as a change myself. I do not like preaching about things that I don’t live, because it feels and is fake. Therefore, I wanted to stop within me, what I did not want to see outside of me. How can I expect another to change, if I cannot even change myself? And I have proven that I can, and so did many others.
What I have always done, is look at things for myself, as well as considering the things I have no clue about. Because on the Desteni website are also material about more “spiritual” subjects for example. I see if there is info that I can use, see for myself, apply… and if it is only a story, I stay “neutral” to it, without believing or disbelieving it. Because people often go into reaction towards the things strange or alien to them, which inhibits us from progressing in many cases. It doesn’t mean accepting everything you hear from a source you trust, and it doesn’t mean disbelieving everything from a source you don’t trust. It means to establish your own common sense, and not judge everything based on very limited understanding.
So within this blog I will lay out the many patterns I face in my everyday life, but also the many patterns existing within this world. Writing out the pattern and the corrective application, the forgiveness for all beings to realize they can forgive themselves and direct themselves toward a better world for themselves and all – no matter if you are a murderer, a pedophile, a racist, a loner, a drug addict etc… Everything part of our world, requires direction. It is time to stop stigmatizing each other, and find out the true cause of all these problems, together with the way of stopping them.
The journey starts today… and I welcome you to follow it.